Not Blogging Much

Its miraculous how swept away I am in this child. We went through so much together while I was pregnant and then we both had our own difficulties after birth, it feels like we have lived a lifetime together already. I know this child on such a strangely deep level that I do not know how do describe it. I find myself gazing into his eyes while I'm feeding him or running upstairs to just look at him. I find myself feeling closer to my husband, getting caught up in him too. I guess that's why I haven't been blogging much, there just hasn't been time between the men in my life, and I'm really okay with that. I can feel life slowing down and speeding up all at the same time and it is exhilarating. I have never felt like this and it's strange to me, to be so in love with life and the people who share it with me.