What the Hell is Wrong with me?

Okay, yes, I've been a long time gone, and I am sorry for that but I have a really good excuse. This new mom thing is a little more time consuming than I thought it would be. All you not so new moms go ahead and laugh, it's cool, I understand. Between the baby and the chemo I'm exhausted and any free time I have is spent sleeping. So the li'l guy is at his Grandthings' house tonight and I have a little free time, and get this...all I can think about is my son. Dammit, I really miss his li'l squirmy body. What the hell is wrong with me? I was looking so forward to a full night's sleep and now I'm kinda sorry that he's not here. What the hell! Where did this grown up, mommy type person come from?